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23rd-Feb-2009 04:47 pm - life is not so lovely
well my so called friends kicked me out of the house friday. fucked up. but whatever. so now i'm having to crash at me mum's until i can find a new place. and it's quite a bitch because now i have to drive an hour to and from work every fucking day. but me mum is being a doll and helping me with the gas money and shit so it's alright as long as i don't piss her off and get booted out of there too.
1st-Dec-2008 08:44 pm - update
guess it's been awhile since i really bothered to write anything on here. life has changed so much. i got kicked out of my mum's house for the 5th and final time. i am now living with my 2 best friends and paying bills and all that bullshit. it's kind of annoying though because my ex-boyfriend is living there to (he's my friends brother) so there is no escaping his ass. it's all right sometimes because we are friends but the rest of the time i would rather punch him in the face(or molest him). lol can't help the fact i still love the boy.... but anywayz, i think i have ataraxia.

Ataraxia (Ἀταραξία) is a Greek term used by Pyrrho and Epicurus for a limpid state, characterized by freedom from worry or any other preoccupation.

that's the definition straight from wikipedia. it's really weird because i used to freak out about everything and now i just... don't. it's crazy. but even when i got kicked out of me mum's and thought i was going to be living in my car (before things worked out with my friends and the bill situation) i really didn't care. hell i was even joking about just leaving my car parked in front of my job and just staying there. it was rather amusing. but shit worked out in the end, because i got bumped up to full time at my job so i've got the extra money to pay the bills. well guess that's alli really feel the need to blather about. l8r

November is National Beard Month. Muttonchops, Van Dyke, goatee, soul patch, ZZ Top–style—tell us about your own wild and woolly facial fuzz. Even better, post a picture.
too bad so sad me no have no facial fuzz..... cause i'm a chick bitch!!! lol i'm crazy
If you had to give up one of your five senses, which could you live without?
taste. then i could actually eat healthy food and not gag. lol
4th-Sep-2008 05:30 pm - crazy
so life is crazy and all right now but i'm dealing with it. today is my off day so i have been trying to enjoy it. just got done hanging out with shad and shelby and now i'm waiting on meg and everyone to geet back home. oh yeah! i had an epiphany. i am officially tired of waiting on eric and just fooling around with him. if he wants me he can ask me out. i deserve better than all of his bullshit. well i gotta fly. mwah
14th-Aug-2008 04:37 pm - I'm Back!!!
Hooray! let's throw a party! life has been alright for the past month. except i might be getting kicked out of my house (again). big shock! not.. but it's all good because i already have another place lined up to live if i do get kicked out. and oh yeah! another reason to throw a party.... Dewayne's coming home!!!! yay! he'll be here tuesday so everyone is really fucking excited. but i guess that's all that's happened recently. the only other thing i've been doing is working.... so yay for that and the paychecks! l8r much 
17th-Jul-2008 01:05 pm - ano......
well i finally talked to my okasan about all of my bullshit and she didn't jump on my case so maybe things will get better..... idk.... she went to lunch with her boss so maybe she'll talk to me when she gets back. i didn't get up and walking today but i'm gonna start getting up at 5am everyday and walk for an hour.....starting saturday. that way i won't bug my okasan and me stepdad.  lol and hopefully i'll hear from don today to find out if i got the job for sure. i hope i did because i need the money....
10th-Jul-2008 06:05 pm - fucking hate my life!!!
 my life is such a bitch right now. everyone keeps trying to control me and make me do shit for myself all at the same time. it is very motherucking confusing. i hate my life. i'm seriously either going to committ suicide or homicide real soon. i hate everyone. i'm tiredof fukcing trying to please everyone! FUCK ME!!!! and my best friends abandoned me for the week to go to NY without me. bitches. l8r
26th-Jun-2008 12:54 pm - crazy busy
life is hectic right now. me mum is getting married in 2 days and i'm the maid of honor. woohoo. lol but i am excited for her, just can't wait for it to be over. lol. i'm still on the job hunt. i just applied to be a floor tech (whatever that is) at a nursing home. oh yeah! and i chopped all my hair off! it tis gorgeously gorgeous!! (even if i do say so myself) hehe but everybody loves it as do i. well gotta fly. try to do a better udate soon. 
22nd-May-2008 01:14 pm - i'm back!!!

yay me!! i'm finally back online and oh how i've missed it. but quick update.... i'm moving to New York in 2 months! hooray!! i'm going with my friends Meg and Josh. we're all gonna get an apartment together with meg's husband Dewayne. he's in the army and stationed up there is why we are moving. but that's the biggest thing going on with me really. except the fact that me and me mum have basically gone to war and can barely have a civil conversation anymore but i'm over it. ugg.  l8r

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